They told me when I was little I'd go to heaven, if I was good. Now I'm a long way from little 'Cause I tried to find heaven, 'cause I thought that I could I thought that I could. And I thought I loved Harold and I really loved John, I really loved Alphy and I almost loved Tom. I loved them so easy and I loved them so free, So I don't think that heaven will wanna love me. Hallo, song of the willow, The dreams under my pillow turned to tears that I cried. Beauty and love are our riddle, Never to answer but always to try, And boy, did I try? I tried with Harold and I tried with John, I tried with Alphy and almost with Tom. I left myself open for the whole world to see, Now the world is the heaven that won't accept me. I said goodbye to Harold and goodbye to John, Goodbye to Alphy and goodbye to Tom 'Cause I loved them so easy and I loved them so free, So I don't think that heaven will wanna love me. Oh say, can you see, by the dawn's early light No light will shine me?