When I set out on this journey I thought it would never end When I started down that road I could not see the end And when I took that first step I fell in so deep And all those things that were so hard-won I thought I would always keep Now what do you think I see standing like a wall in front of me Defeat, not victory Defeat, not victory Defeat, not victory [Chorus:] So what are you going to do? Die? No you gonna lay down and die? No I will not admit defeat I will not admit defeat I will see victory Pride and deceit have choked my life like weeds And I lost sight of what I really had what I really need And all the things I should've valued I gave away for a prayer and a song And now when I reach out for them they are gone Now you know what I see standing in front of me Like a headstone a fucking monument to human misery Defeat, not victory Defeat, not victory Defeat, not victory [Chorus] Do I have any friends here? I can't see are any of my friends here? I can't see what about you? Will you be a friend to me? What about you? Will you be a friend to me? I've got a question to ask you and then you can ask it of me It's a simple request and then you can make it of me Can you forgive me? Can you see what will be? Is it victory? Now I can't show you all the things I ve seen And I can't make you feel anything Certainly not what they meant to me And someday I know, no matter how hard we try We are all going to have to lay down and die So maybe I should just tell you what I hope and believe For every defeat there will be a victory For every defeat there will be a victory in defeat, victory