Lima Heights

There's no way that I'm going out to the bar with you 
tonight
It's just not very becoming of me today
And I'm so goddamn tired of people asking me
What have you been up to since high school? I heard you 
went on tour
Did you come back famous?

Fuck no, I didn't I guess you could say
I made up for the money I lost in experience
(I still went out and tried it, didn't I?)
I'm driving back to the suburbs with indifference to 
everyone
Who thinks they have an opinion
(You still stayed home and drowned yourself in wine)
I think we're over past due on a revenue
I'm starting to believe less and less in celebrating 
without accomplishment

Maybe its so that you need me as much as I need you
You'll find out slow that you need me as much as I need you

Are we real friends or am I an accessory?
A friend is a gift that you give yourself until your 
enemies
Yeah, I see how it is must we justify our friendship 
through a pic in the mirror?
Verify it by cyber strangers my dignity is in major danger

Maybe its a blessing in disguise that we don't see eye to 
eye anymore
I don't feel like touching that much anymore, I'd rather 
talk
And I don't feel like drinking that much anymore
I'd rather think about what's in store in my future

Shit I should have probably gone to college
Instead of shows and racking up the mileage
I know those diy venues and shows littered in pbrs was lots
 of fun
I had no intention of doing that for too long, I had to 
take it back to the 661
Last night in downtown bakersfield at 3am I blew a 09 and 
spent the night in jail
It's not supposed to be like this, for God sakes I was an 
honor role student from stockdale
Its not supposed to be like this, I pray they never find 
out what I send in the mail
It's not supposed to be like this, a young boy doing crazy 
shit I'd better never fail

Somehow I don't mind that I fucked up so hard, life just 
keeps going
Somehow I don't mind that I fucked up so hard, life just 
keeps going