(The) walls are breathing heavy, closing in around my chest Every second feels like sinking, like my ribs can't find a rest The silence turns to violence, tearing through my mind again I can't escape the feeling that I'm breaking from within Pain, yeah, it claws at me Dragging all my thoughts where I don't want to be I fear the empty nights when nothing fills the space 'Cause nothing hurts much deeper than a hollowed-out place The cutter's always watching, like it memorized my dread The edge repeats my failures, every word I never said The blade is chasing echoes of the person I've become And no matter how I run, I keep ending where I'm from And I'm falling, falling fast While the past keeps pulling me back I break, even when I fake Every heartbeat shakes like it's about to quake Yeah I ache, trying not to cave Trying not to drown beneath another endless wave I scream into the dark but it never cares at all I know it's killing me that I can't escape the fall I'm stuck inside a loop where every night turns into war I swear I climb a little, then I crash even more My breath becomes a warning, trembling down my spine The shadows start to whisper that I'll never cross the line The cutter's standing closer, like it's waiting for the slip Its presence pulls me downward with a tightening grip The edge keeps calling loudly like it knows I'm losing light And I'm begging for a moment where I'm not losing the fight And I'm falling, falling fast While the past keeps pulling me back I break, even when I fake Every heartbeat shakes like it's about to quake Yeah I ache, trying not to cave Trying not to drown beneath another endless wave I scream into the dark but it never cares at all I know it's killing me that I can't escape the fall I feel the pressure rising, tearing air out of my lungs Every thought is heavy like a thousand beating drums I feel alone in crowds that used to feel like home No escape, no hand to hold, just a war I face alone It's hard to see the world when the fear distorts my sight Hard to speak my truth when my voice fades into night I'm slipping through the cracks of the person I should be Terrified that someday there'll be nothing left of me Pain, yeah, I drown in pain And I'm praying not to fall into that place again If the darkness calls, I'll try to stall Even if I can't escape it all Drop at night