Suicide Song For The Small Town Purple Heart Recipient

this is it, and that is all,
and i'll still blame it on me i'm going home to hide and i 
know how pathetic
i must sound right now but i'll never be the man you want 
me to be he is fucking buried and lost for a long time 
running now another day=another pointless aspiration i 
don't have it in me anymore to live (to forgive)
i swore that i'd never waste the ink and paper on you then 
again, i also siad i'd make something of this fucking life 
looks like i was wrong again looks like this might be the 
end this is what it all comes down to looks like this is 
the end