Where I'm at, sometimes... I just need to shut my eyes. A mother's love and a father's pride... somehow it's all been twisted. And these are the times that I swear, I ain't gonna be like that. But all the while in the back of my mind, that doubt comes creeping up from behind... and I want to punch the wall when I look at myself. I swear, and I swear... I ain't gonna be like that. But sometimes I look in the mirror and I see you looking back at me... but I survive in spite of myself, I survive in spite of myself, I survive in spite of myself.