I see myself standing beside my bed bad thoughts are going through my head over and over I think of the past one good memory came to me at last Every breath feels like a long long time fading pictures are crossing my mind I want to live my life again maybe I will do much better then I can't feel the pain I think I'm going insane Heaven... is tomorrow lost to me forever trapped within the hour glass rising... falling in and out in time slowly drowning in the sand I am all alone in this endless dream everyone is different so it has to be I feel a cold wind blowing through my soul heaven is calling so I have to go I have to free my mind from thoughts that I believed were right it's very hard to understand that this is apart of human life