Dear Lord, I thank you for my Brother Chris I ask you watch over him Your protector I ask you continue to show yourself strong God let you have a plan I know this journey may look different than everybody else's God asks you continue to make him sure of it Continue to protect him as he enters into these rooms and these spaces In Jesus' name, I pray to Lord and God, and I thank you And I praise you Amen Can't even act like I'm good 'cause I just got a call from my dawg that our homie just died Lowkey won't even cry Bank account not good enough to get back home if I tried All my bread spent on rent I feel so fucking tired Move to LA with the hope of success, but I still haven't seen a return on investment Most of my friends getting married and here I am married to dreams till I'm breathless Giving up ain't a scene I've accepted Fuck Feet don't fail me now I came too far to go back home So damn close to win I feel it leaking thru my bones I hope somebody still praying for me Hope someone praying for me Hoping that someday my ex might forgive me for breaking it off in attempt to be selfish Truth is, I'm high key ashamed of it My love for this goal overpowered the love that enwrapped our relationship Paramore songs leave me triggered Part of me knows she was hurt, but the hurt of regret in my soul'd have been bigger I use to fear that I’ll die unfulfilled tryna please everybody instead Now I just fear that I'll end up alone on the day that I'm actually dead Steep price to pay, but I'm willing to pay it's what worth If it means evolution and taking the reigns off whole generational curse, I promise I'm down Label just pushed back the project and most days I feel like I'm losing my confidence Tours going out and the skipping my name for the bill 'cause I'm lacking accomplishments Someday I feel like I failed when I start to reflect Voices of granny still cheering me on is the reason I still haven't checked Just gotta call from Gabe He want me to link up with Kai and rap for the stream Part of me scared 'cause deep down I know if I choke I probably just pack up the dream Last chance to make it I might as well jump from the cliff Either you learn how to fly under pressure or end up submerged in what it's Feet don't fail me now I came too far to go back home So damn close to win I feel it leaking thru my bones I hope somebody still praying for me Hope someone praying for me