my heart has been stabbed with a knife of sorrow pierced by the dagger of broken promises infected by the plague I can't oppose on poison thoughts that darken the mind ...forever gone...embrace the ashes deep oceans of pain that I drown in choke the struggle for a breathe I can't take push me away where I've never been before where honor and dignity lose their meaning distant cries that I hear will not bring me back ...sew the wounds but they're too deep...