She's laughing while I'm crying She's smiling while I'm dying I wish I could stop I'm so tired of trying I just wanna give up I just wanna let go Cuz I would do anything for her Anything to show Show how much I care Make her see that I'll always be there But she won't look at me now. And she's laughing while I'm crying Smiling while I'm dying I wish I could stop I'm so tired of trying I met her so long ago- We seemed so close I told her all I wanted But there's so much she doesn't know She doesn't really know me She thinks there's nothing left to learn She doesn't seem to care I'm gone and that I won't return And... She's laughing while I'm crying She's smiling while I'm dying My very best friend, right? -I'm so sick of all the lying I'm so confused-was ANY of it real? I can't even explain to myself these feelings that I feel There's so many parts of me- some good and many bad Some that I want to be-but some that just make me sad So many parts of me And half of them are lying The question is- Is the piece of me that's laughing while I'm crying? I think she means well, she's helped me through so much She was always in the picture of my life that she has touched Without her along with me, my life would've been hell, But now she's part of the pieces of me that are starting to rebel-beginning to give up…letting things slip away… part of me that made me wonder where I really wanted to stay. Part of me that's making me feel so sad- When I know I really shouldn't And I can take nothing back But if I could I probably wouldn't I love her for life- No matter WHO says that I shouldn't. And I'll always be around And all always do what I can do To help her through hard times and help make her dreams come true. I'll always do my best To make sure she's alright I wanna HELP her I want her happy For this I pray each night I love her so much I just hope that it's real... And I don't understand it- I probably never will. But I'm so so happy that- She's laughing while I'm crying She's smiling while I'm dying -but I'm so confused and I'm So tired of trying.