I know what she does to me And even so I let her in She says she gives me relief But deep down she just wants to bury me She's sweet like expensive poison She's home in the middle of a shipwreck Everybody points, everybody complains But no one lives, no one knows the truth It's not that I don't want to stay away It's just that I only breathe with her here Living forever is a beautiful plan But I need her to make it work She kills me, but she saves me too It's death with a taste of peace They say it's addiction, I call it home I know one day she'll drag me down But today Today I need to escape Some days the mirror judges me Some nights I swear it's over But when the world slams the doors shut She's the one who still saves me Everyone wants me clean Preaches and demands evolution But no one holds my hand When I'm hanging over the abyss It's not courage, it's desperation A pocket saint that smells like death She leaves me rotten, but leaves me standing And that's more than many have done for me She kills me, but she saves me too It's death with a taste of peace They say it's addiction, I call it home I know one day she'll drag me down But today Today I need to escape They'll bury me with her in my hand And everyone will want to judge But no one gave me a way out Only a sermon She kills me, but she's all I have Sinks me smiling, gives me a reason If it's a fall, let it be with her on my chest If it's hell, let it come with a live soundtrack She kills me slowly But at least she lets me exist