Shadows of the past condemning the present
Enticed with desolation in a fever of atonement

I awake within the abyss
Peering into a reflection of the dark
Staring at the dismal version of myself
Weighing all that was lost

Deafening silence swallows my senses
Resurface the hatred carving through my mind

Helpless restrained by my own fears
Severing a natural bond with existence
My blood will not quench the thirst of death
My soul will not fail before my final breath

Devoured in doubt this burden never fades
The worst of acts erodes the coming days

Fulfill this self sacrifice
Impurities renounced
The truth is concealed
Torn away from life
Damned forever in this mouth of hell
Endless is the suffering
Sadness prevails

Abandon all self-love
A short way to madness
Seeking a purpose when reason has lost
The cold flames of emptiness
The precious bliss of pain
Learn to forgive myself for God has no regard

Beneath the tomb where all is hidden
I await the serpent and the bringer of the end
I fled from solitude and mercy
To become one with the rotting insects

Made this enemy of heaven
Held darkness to my heart
Immersed in the blood of guilt
My oath has cursed this life

I am dealt this unforgiveness
Condemned to penance
Suffering draws me closer to this exodus of life

Final thoughts of desolation disappears into fields of blood
Servant of this false betrayal
Forever undone