Forgive Me First

Maybe I'm reaching, but all I ever hear now correlates to 
you and me
Don't call it preaching, babe if you're the choir maybe you
 could set me free
Sing far from churches, tho I've never been I know what 
they all want to say
"When this life hurts it's a sin to try and fight", you'll 
thank them on a distant day
But we know better, working for no man if he doesn't 
promise pay
Rapture and then Glory, when you get to heaven maybe you 
won't want to stay
Cuz it's difficult to live with -  perfect in every way

I'll admit the holy ghost is not a part of me
Cuz I split, now I know he don't want no part of me
And I know he won't forgive me first
So "I'm sorry, and I never meant to hurt.
I'm sorry, and I never meant one word."

I take up serpents and drinking my salvation, waiting for 
the blessed to come
I don't think it's Jesus, a worldly companion will show me 
that my life has begun
But she ain't surfaced so I'll be a little fisherman, live 
where the salmon run
I know my purpose - I make friends with the moon because 
someone's got to welcome the sun
Say it's difficult to live with, hoping it will soon be 
done