Am I wicked, am I bright As I watch you open up the Sterilized thing that's about to bite Might as well put me in a cage Fill me up with prescriptions Till I either smile or break For I was caught up in a storm Pacing 'round the house Trying to board up all the doors Terrified that someone might see The abnormalities embedded in me No matter how I try No matter how I fight The difference between you and I Keeps me up at night For I was told something about me Just wasn't right I'm my own aesthetic I'm the sharp edges that you hide I commission on feelings That can't always bring delight All your anesthetics In your beautiful lullabies Make me feel nothing Except so unbearably light Lover don't look at me that way I need you to stand safely clear Away from my gaze For I'm about to burst in flames Oh, my insides are tight I'm terrified for you to see me this way For I don't know What's happening to me But I'm standing on the brink Of torment and ecstasy And how desperately I need For you to know exactly What that means Waves are crashing I take action Every time I get nervous I write about it Baby can't you see This affliction in me Is both constricting And setting me free I'm my own aesthetic I'm the sharp edges that you hide I commission on feelings That can't always bring delight All your anesthetics In your beautiful lullabies Make me feel nothing Except so unbearably light There's a darkness in me Though you cannot see it I feel it when I breathe And I've grown so tired Of hiding my supposed shame The imbalance in my brain When all I really want And really need Is for you to tell me that I'll will be okay To be who we are Should never hide ourselves Eradicate the taboo nature Of our mental health We all deserve to be represented Instead of forced to conform By your anesthetics Masked as lullabies in the media That tell you lies that We are all dangerous And the only way to feel is incredibly light And there's something wrong with you If you aren't happy all the time I'm my own aesthetic I'm the sharp edges that you hide I commission on feelings That can't always bring delight All your anesthetics In your beautiful lullabies Make me feel nothing Except so unbearably light