I'm Having An Emotional Eclipse(And Now I'm Going To Light Myself On Fire)

ah yes
I'm staring out a window into a life that is not for me and
 yes
I'm staring out a window into a life of uncertainty it's 
surprising I choked through another day always coming 
choking me until I'm awake suicidal beliefs in front of me 
it's something is there no fucking way this is for only me 
I want to end it all leave it all behind me and you'll 
never see me again that something is coming force it away 
but cannot see through there's so much pain is this how I'm
 supposed to feel what I'm feeling it just cannot be real 
and I won't feel bad for what I've done all the tormenting 
pressure it will not go I'm looking just like the rest of 
you would you call it suffering and mental pain but I never
 get shit I'll run away this is for only me I want to end 
it all an exit from all you and you'll never see me again 
end it all and don't try to stop me I'll end it all cause I
 know you don't believe covered up to my head in kerosene 
kill myself cause I know this life it sucks don't care and 
don't try to stop me end it all cause I know that you don't
 believe covered up to my head in kerosene light it off 
gonna let my sorrow burn burn burn burn burn bring it paint
 it ending I'm covered in kerosene strike a match and feel 
my sorrow burn I'm letting go