Becoming Victoria

I'm getting tired of the same routine
Returned abandonment you're back again
Hallow apology, it's all the same to me
But I'll make it through no thanks to you

You said, I'll never leave you again, never leave you 
again. No. By opening your eyes wider than usual you're 
able to benefit from those thoughts and ideas that are not 
so readily accepted by people like you, by people around 
you.

You push me harder than anyone else, anyone. With 
everything you say, with every word you say you push me 
farther and farther away from you. But i'll make it 
through, no thanks to you

Why am I becoming Victoria?