My body is killing itself No matter what I try to try Keeps telling me to surrender Maybe I should let it die My insides are fighting now at least The violence that hurts me is mine The doctor gives me marching orders But the mission is a suicide You might try to understand it But even your empathy feels dry I'm so tired of hurting I can't cry, cry I can't cry It's hard to cry Legs always feeling so heavy All my bones catching on fire Going from twenty to eighty Almost like I'm not alive My head tells me to keep moving But I can't follow the signs Putting a smile in the mirror While watching all my hair die I can feel my eyes aching But the tears won't come down when I try I'm so tired of hurting I can't cry, cry I can't cry It's hard to cry, cry It's hard to cry I can't cry It's hard to cry