Lying on the broken glass My blood is no longer part of me The fountain pen has run out of ink And my decency went with it My black and gray tears Seeing myself as a stranger Pretending that the cuts don't cause me pain And I believe that monsters are under my bed It was necessary, I had to suffer, I had to believe in make-believe I had to dive into lies, I had to drown My tears ricochet and return to my face Lights blind the eyes, close a cycle I had to dive into lies, I had to drown What if I had bad character, what if I lied to everyone Would that make me a traitor? So you're already off track A long time ago, a long time ago, many years ago Can I go to the bottom of the can? It's dark there, it echoes there, I would be alone there But not completely, it would be hugging my soul And that would be the end, it would be rock bottom Constant pain, slow death, rolling eyes Breaking walls of bones, breaking trust Broken typewriter, wind that lifts your hair It was necessary, I had to suffer, I had to believe in make-believe I had to dive into lies, I had to drown My tears ricochet and return to my face Lights blind the eyes, close a cycle I had to dive into lies, I had to drown What if I had bad character, what if I lied to everyone Would that make me a traitor? So you're already off track A long time ago, a long time ago, many years ago Diving into lies, diving into unreal facts Diving into lies, diving into unreal facts Diving into lies, diving into unreal facts Diving into lies, diving into unreal facts Diving into lies, diving into unreal facts Diving into lies, diving into unreal facts Diving into lies, diving into unreal facts It was necessary, I had to suffer, I had to believe in make-believe I had to dive into lies, I had to drown My tears ricochet and return to my face Lights blind the eyes, close a cycle I had to dive into lies, I had to drown What if I had bad character, what if I lied to everyone Would that make me a traitor? So you're already off track A long time ago, a long time ago, many years ago