I'm in wonderland Lying about things shouldn't lie about Walking on cobblestones And smelling my death Bad analogies about my life Compiled from my fears A dagger made just to kill me I change my number every day It wasn't supposed to be like this I couldn't get lost But your look is captivating In Wonderland, I will die In Wonderland, I will bury myself In Wonderland, I will regret the best moments Why did I kill all my sweetest versions And I left the worst in charge In Wonderland, I will go crazy In Wonderland, I will cry a river In Wonderland, I will fight a thousand battles And I will lose them all I forgot how happy I am It was supposed to be the best of all But I never accepted that perfection doesn't exist In my crazy head, she's entirely real Everything that's happening to me is fair I did things I shouldn't have done I forgot the real meaning of life But now it doesn't matter I already lost myself (what the fuck did I do?) It wasn't supposed to be like this I couldn't get lost But your look is captivating In Wonderland, I will die In Wonderland, I will bury myself In Wonderland, I will regret the best moments Why did I kill all my sweetest versions And I left the worst in charge In Wonderland, I will go crazy In Wonderland, I will cry a river In Wonderland, I will fight a thousand battles And I will lose them all I hurt people I love I broke ties, I broke contracts Why did I have to be like this Why did I always want things perfect I'm not even a Virgo, my mother is But I wanted something to comfort me And when I didn't find it, I went crazy It wasn't supposed to be like this I couldn't get lost But your look is captivating In Wonderland, I will die In Wonderland, I will bury myself In Wonderland, I will regret the best moments Why did I kill all my sweetest versions And I left the worst in charge In Wonderland, I will go crazy In Wonderland, I will cry a river In Wonderland, I will fight a thousand battles And I will lose them all