City Orchards

Each night, I decorate the walls of my room with sketches 
of a city I've never seen
I've held the same air in my lungs for the past seventeen 
years-
I think it's time for a fresh breath, but only as time will
 allow
Do you think that you can trick time into thinking that it 
never passed?
Do you really think each new memory can just replace the 
last?

I pay attention to the finer details, like the crooked and 
tired buildings
That cast shadows over lonely playgrounds and the dim lamp 
posts
Lighting the road like an infinite set of sad eyes
When it's time to sleep
I lay on my back and stare at my makeshift night sky
I always forget the stars
And each morning, when I wake
I always wake up alone

So I erase my walls and start again
Do I dare disturb the universe?