Like the dead leaf Hanging to a tree Everyone all wants to speak Like we are fruit of the same seed But we are not And won't ever be This is the house That pain has built These are all the walls Written with guilt I know that sometimes it seems I am repeating my words It's all these versions of me Simply taking turns No matter how many Memories made It all begins to descend Into disarray Life is full of lessons But one thing I will never learn When you play games with fire You will always get fucking burned I swear to God I must love pain Day after day I find my way Straight back To the suffering Years They feel like days How far gone Am I mentally I remember a Different me Am I who I am Supposed to be Maybe it's not a ghost Maybe it's just you One thought From two perspectives By my point of view Black water Won't you pull me aside And drown me inside Of your darkened tides The difference is I am different souls Bound by skin Blood and bones Condolences To those who know When the life your given Isn't only your own Where does life go I'm falling away I can't hold on Feeling so displaced This is a game of survival I don't want to see my face I was blue in a world of gray Every single day I fall apart It's all over before it starts Counting time I've been living inside of my minds eye Wasting my life by idolizing lies Leaving me behind to fit your design Focusing on things that didn't matter More concerned about appearance Instead of my stature One day I will be gone from this earth But I will live on If only through these words Picture perfect world It's time to say goodbye I'm sorry that I let you down I tried my best to make you proud But I'm no apple of your eye Someday you will see It was always me I am the dead leaf Just hanging by a thread It's hard to sleep when underneath You feel no heart beat in your chest This is the house Built from pain This is the glass that lies Shattered from shame And we will never be Roots to the same tree