Some time ago I wandered down a path That beckoned with a whisper It crept up and latched upon my back Now it's with me on the road Its Machiavellian movements are a test To witness in the flesh Makes me smile when I should be crying And it never lets me rest If you see me smiling It's forceful and violent Oh, it's still there though in the silence 'Cause I'm always on stage There's gack and drink and steroids on the counter Do you think you're some kind of rockstar I did all that when I was on the dole But the money didn't stretch as far But at least then I had my head up on my shoulders And faced love without fear But it took all that away And put my failures on display And, now you're no longer here If you see me smiling It's forceful and violent You had my soul when it was vibrant Before I lost it on a stage If you see me smiling It's forceful and violent You had my soul when it was vibrant Before I lost it on a stage Ooh