Lonely walking through a blazing fire I desire something better I'm always burning Or I'm freezing in an arctic tundra I hold myself to survive On the cold, wicked nights Open windows so I fan the flames And toss the pain in Watch it crackle First to ashes then it turns to stardust And I'm so lost I don't need money or gold Just give me a hand to hold I won't apologize for wanting someone by my side Been solo fighting a war You can tell I'm getting tired Maybe I've been way too strong And its a trauma response Learning to just bear it all In the ocean when the tide and currents Drag me under in an instant Were all the swimming lessons useless chatter And do I matter? I'll save myself once again While calling out for a friend I won't apologize for wanting someone by my side Been solo fighting a war You can tell I'm getting tired Maybe I've been way too strong And its a trauma response Learning to just bear it all Ooh, ooh (Feel it quickly rushing in) Ooh, ooh (Feel it quickly rushing in) Ooh, ooh If I'm breaking down, let me break down I won't apologize for wanting someone by my side Been solo fighting a war You can tell I'm getting tired Maybe I've been way too strong And its a trauma response Learning to just bear it all