Junie wants what's best for me and I don't ask why I know better than to waste her time Junie says the problem is I don't even try Every time she asks a question I lie It's barely winter but I've made up my mind There is nothing else left to decide Have you learned nothing from the pain in your side? Are you holding out for dear life? Radio signal couldn't find me on the roof It only tells me bad news Keep that in mind Say what I know to be true I think I'm bad for you And I really meant it this time Leaving without saying goodbye Move in with my grandma by the seaside I want a whole 'nother life I tried a million times Keeping you needless in the back of my mind I tried picking my fights Checking your breathing through the end of the night In a few years when the ink dries I will be here Starting fires in the front yard Through the sickness I was the safeguard But you fell too hard I am wishing Is it making sense I can fix it But it won't hurt you less What is missing I made this mess From a distance It's gonna take me next It's the creature that's moving At a terrible speed It's believing you'll wake me if I'm falling asleep I have dreams that I'm grasping Something out of my reach I am screaming for nothing Saying what am I doing now What am I doing now Saying what am I doing now What am I doing now