I bought all these questions in my mind, and I’m still taking pain I bought all these homies all around, I just can’t take ‘em away I’m so overrated, overthinking, but I’m still the same I am not around me anymore, and I can fail me I am tryna do the certain thing, but I’m still just right here I am out of control, and my mind still yelling at me My purpose to breathe, I’m awake, don’t wanna be here I don’t wanna be here I don’t wanna lose myself again I don’t wanna fall apart again I don’t wanna stay away from my illness I don’t wanna be in love again You always put me down, again You always call me back, again You’re still making me feel the blame, again You’re always by my side, and still I'm okay with this, I just wanna be at home tonight Laying in my bed, and forgiving me for all that times That I should go away, and just start Try a one more time Pain will be always by my side, but it's all alright Why I'm just right here I don't know, but I will survive For all that times that I couldn't realize I just can't breathe, no, no, no, I just can't breathe All this pain in my chest, I can't survive All this pain in my chest, you just make me remind All of that pain that I had in the past, but now I can't survive because you're not by my side You always put me down You always get me down You're always in the clouds You're always getting me out of your mind You're always trying to make me feel guilty You're always trying to get off of my life You're getting out of the way And now I'm going to kill myself