Regret

you heard its no use trying to make sense it doesn't matter
 anyway there's no one worth the
pain no reason left to stay i try to turn it off where did 
the old me go? how did I get so far
away? I just don't know every act of kindness boils down to
 lust or greed no one acts from
altruism it all comes down to need there's a monster inside
 my heart he tries to tear my
world apart there's a demon inside my head tells me id be 
better off dead I try to turn it off
get back to positive don't want to drag you down to the 
street where I live I try to turn it off
get back to happy days pull this barrel from my mouth and 
look for better ways every act...
everything you never tried every time you might have lied 
every flaw you tried to hide
every drop you ever cried every time you've been denied 
every tear that ever dried
everything builds up inside in waves of regret miles wide