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i found the list of reasons to stay in their place but a 
false reply from an
inner voice is all i hear. it screams to me like shallow 
calls to forfeit my
place and become who i was years ago. it sees this: on 
nights so long you
stand there with all your friends. on night so long i stand
 there with my
hands and eyes and thoughts across the room. you call me 
and i hear the
voice a friend hears. i call you and you hear the voice a 
fan hears. i call
her and i call myself the fool. but she knows it's more 
than i've been used
to. on nights alone you stand there. it's hard to make a 
friend. on nights
alone i stand there. and she stands with me.