I walked in circles
Trying to fit in with society
I was too naive to think the world was colorful
But when you grow up
You fall face first into reality
It's so cruel but you need to realize

I explained to my younger brother the shit I've been through
I wanted to spare him from thinking he'll always be happy

Maybe I failed at this shit
More than once
Maybe I failed at this shit
More than once

Today I have insecurities and suffer from recurring anxiety
Today I have insecurities and suffer from recurring anxiety

I wish I knew in the past
What I knew in the future
I know my parents weren't eternal
But now I feel lost (yeah)

I wish I knew in the past
What I knew in the future
I know my parents weren't eternal
But now I feel lost (yeah)

So much suffering my young man
You don't even know what you're really going to suffer in the future
Enjoy your life while you're a child and carefree
Adult life is a test of endurance
Where the weakest fall
And the strongest take advantage
If I knew it would be like this
I would have ended it all before

I wanted to go back in time
And stop my future
Because I was happy before
But today I only have anxiety attacks
I wanted to go back in time
And bury myself
Because before I was naive
But today I only have anxiety attack

I wish I knew in the past
What I knew in the future
I know my parents weren't eternal
But now I feel lost (yeah)

I wish I knew in the past
What I knew in the future
I know my parents weren't eternal
But now I feel lost (yeah)

Too young to realize
That I made a mistake

I fight against my early choices
Without having had the necessary guidance
I fight against my demons
Just wanting to save myself
But I know I was flawed in a flawed and dirty society
Too young to realize
That I made a mistake yeah