Two nights in all my year Two feelings around my neck One of them is choking me The other is out there And I know I'm fine And I know I'm fine Just to be alright I say that I'll be fine But day by day Is another thing That I try to say Of what I have to live Why do I lied when I am free? Time by time I slipped away I cut off all my hands To feel my blood falling down I covered my nose and hid my arms To save my own foundling I'm feeling useless tonight I lost the spark of my eyes I'm not alone but I don't care I saw my mind and I'm aware That I'm feeling useless tonight I leave my spark on your eyes I'm not alone but I don't care I saw in my mind all my nightmares I bared my soul To have more life I cut off all my hands To feel my blood falling down I covered my nose and hid my arms To save my own foundling When I say that I'll be fine I wish I could escape of mine I try to be more than I was But my hands are beating all my chances I put my mind into your heart I waste my time all the time Two snakes around my neck They will make me suffer like yesterday But tomorrow will be another day Alone in my room, seeing my space I will try to romanticize the death So I can explain how lonely I am