I wasn't holdin' on to words that you never meant Problems with myself 'cause of the things that I never said Brea-, brea-, breaking down the walls between us Only to find that the open door was straight ahead So tell me, what am I breaking my back for? I should've asked more, probably, could've relaxed more When I was tripping, could've filled the re-stamp on the passport Now I'm just guessing that I'm gettin' the payment I asked for This is exactly what I never came back for Bеcause I'm not searching for forgivenеss Because I'm not taking back the things I've done And I'm not making your decisions Because you're everything I'm not Can never live in the background It's getting harder to stop this bleeding back Never needed to back down Been underwater and I'm still breathin' in Next up, my God I've got one million and one more reasons And I've got my heart turned up Sick of trying to fighting this feeling Because I'm not searching for forgiveness Because I'm not taking back the things I've done And I'm not making your decisions Because you're everything I'm not Because you're everything I'm not As I take in my last breath And this weight is on my shoulders I don't need to second-guess Won't let you in Feel this pain inside my chest And we're only growing colder I don't need to second-guess I let you in I'm not searching for forgiveness Because I'm not taking back the things I've done And I'm not making your decisions Because you're everything I'm not I'm not searching for forgiveness Because I'm not taking back the things I've done And I'm not making your decisions Because you're everything I'm not