Rain pouring down my head pounds from the sound
I'm stuck to the bed with brain zaps in my head
I can't fall asleep I cannot stay awake
I cry 'til I weep I shiver and I shake
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I think of you I think of you
I think of you it's all that I can do
And Lord knows I've tried
I'm trying hard to change
I wish I knew why I always stay the same
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This is not who I want to be
This is not who I want to be
I am slowly killing me
No, this is not who I want to be
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I wish I was scared of poison pills and pain
I wish I was scared of damage to my brain
But finally I see I should be scared of me
How'd I come to be my own worst enemy?
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This is not who I want to be
This is not who I want to be
I am slowly killing me
No, this is not who I want to be