God knows I'm terrified Of all these things I try to hide Oh lover, don’t look at me that way As I try to explain knowing you can’t stay There are days in which I cry And I'm still trying to figure out The reasons oh why I’ve come so far from that desperate state But all I have to do is turn back that page Its that easy to slip away Away Oh, my babe Just look at me for what I'm about to say My babe Please don’t go away I love you but I'm afraid that is A selfish thing to say For my state For I’ve grown terrified I won’t find peace in my own mind The way it ebbs and flows One trickle in the water and There’s ripples in my soul For I'm an emotional being They put me on medication to hold my seams Could you ever be with me? Someone that can’t trust their own feelings? God knows I'm terrified That I’ll never learn to love right For every time I start to feel I become hypomanic and it Becomes too real That I will burn out bright And there are days in which I scream For my heart is so heavy It breaks with every beat And even though I'm in love with you I can’t let you in to see that simple truth 'Cause then it would be your burden too Oh, I have grown terrified That I won’t find acceptance in this life For every time I'm filled with hope Just to have it shatter over things I can’t control So baby, please I know I'm the one that’s ending things But could you ever be Ready to face all the seasons within me Within me? Oh, can’t you see What frightens me Words I must now speak What I'm scared most to say Is if I share with you All of my states Would you be too scared to leave and stay? Would you then never look at me the same? Oh, what I'm scared most to say What I'm scared most to say Is if I expose my heart in every way If I lost you I’d fear the pain And what I'm really scared most to say Is if I share my euphoria and pain Would you use them against me someday? And what I'm really scared most to say Is that I love you But I am afraid