God knows I'm terrified
Of all these things I try to hide
Oh lover, don’t look at me that way
As I try to explain knowing you can’t stay

There are days in which I cry
And I'm still trying to figure out
The reasons oh why
I’ve come so far from that desperate state
But all I have to do is turn back that page
Its that easy to slip away
Away

Oh, my babe
Just look at me for what I'm about to say
My babe
Please don’t go away
I love you but I'm afraid that is
A selfish thing to say
For my state

For I’ve grown terrified
I won’t find peace in my own mind
The way it ebbs and flows
One trickle in the water and
There’s ripples in my soul
For I'm an emotional being
They put me on medication to hold my seams
Could you ever be with me?
Someone that can’t trust their own feelings?

God knows I'm terrified
That I’ll never learn to love right
For every time I start to feel
I become hypomanic and it
Becomes too real
That I will burn out bright
And there are days in which I scream
For my heart is so heavy
It breaks with every beat
And even though I'm in love with you
I can’t let you in to see that simple truth
'Cause then it would be your burden too

Oh, I have grown terrified
That I won’t find acceptance in this life
For every time I'm filled with hope
Just to have it shatter over things
I can’t control
So baby, please
I know I'm the one that’s ending things
But could you ever be
Ready to face all the seasons within me
Within me?
Oh, can’t you see
What frightens me
Words I must now speak

What I'm scared most to say
Is if I share with you
All of my states
Would you be too scared to leave and stay?
Would you then never look at me the same?
Oh, what I'm scared most to say

What I'm scared most to say
Is if I expose my heart in every way
If I lost you I’d fear the pain

And what I'm really scared most to say
Is if I share my euphoria and pain
Would you use them against me someday?

And what I'm really scared most to say
Is that I love you
But I am afraid