That hoodie was the best thing to happen to me
Like the one thing that you salvage from a house fire
When you dropped me at her house 'cause I'm just too much to deal with
I'm the last kid that should be around a lighter
And lying's such a chore, but the truth feels so wrong
And every turn I make just keeps me from getting where I want
But when I confide in her, I tear apart the earth
There's somebody who has it ten times worse
There's no time left to pity and I see it in my friends
And they all look so much older than me
But tonight I'm feeling brave
I think I'll act my age until a kid says that there's something wrong with me

And sometimes the smoke smells good
Leave the window open when it's freezing cold
I know
When you left me home alone, when you left for your award show
I ditched you guys and died, laid in the snow

Spent too many nights
Pinching my sides wondering if I'm living in a dream
When I don't know who to ask
I think that I'll just pass, like, maybe I'll just figure it out myself
Butterflies inside me, they turn into tapeworms
And I stay awake till my stomach hurts
So when it's 4 AM and I can't eat anything
I'll wake up too late and get what I deserve
And I know, I told you two weeks, but it's been seventeen years
And every time I sing they close their ears
It's all in my head, it's cheesy but it's true
If I could, I'd blame it all on you
Sometimes I'd try to talk, and nothing comes out
And most of my memories aren't how they really were
I'm slipping on the line, I'm confused all the time
When you go to claim your bags, don't claim what's mine

And sometimes the smoke smells good
Leave the window open when it's freezing cold
I know
When you left me home alone, when you left for your award show
I ditched you guys and died, laid in the snow

I have this funny dream that I moved to Bombay Beach
And I'm never seen or heard from again
Won't have to watch out for sharks swimming in the Salton Sea
Even though I'm more than sure that one just bit me
And I've been performing poorly, but it's so hard to be honest
She's been threatening that I go get some help
When I picture your face it comes up as someone else
Someone who's treated me the same