Lexington Avenue, 2 AM Yellow taxis and a head full of drugs Lipstick stain in a coffee cup I don't sleep, I just get high Subway crying beneath my feet The city is buzzing, but I feel weak So I walk like the night is mine Just to hide that I'm dead inside They say: Boy, you love the adrenaline But they don't know How bad it gets when everything is still Adrenaline rushing through my veins Like a last lifeline for my brain They think I'm wild, they think I'm free But I'm just drowning in silence Adrenaline, it keeps me feeling something Anything is better than nothing Yeah, I smile like I'm okay But I'm just trying to survive the day Brooklyn nights and a reckless ride Crossing boundaries just to feel it again On top of the skyscrapers Seeing the lights from above near the edge Testing gravity like I had Evidence Taxi swerving, I don't flinch I wish it had really crashed Every risk is a silent plea Maybe this is what will end me Every ecstasy is a rehearsed goodbye I don't want to live But I can't just die Adrenaline rushing through my veins Like a last lifeline for my brain They think I'm wild, they think I'm free But I'm just drowning in silence Adrenaline, keeps me feeling something Anything is better than nothing Yes, I smile like I'm okay But I'm just trying to survive the day Engine screaming in the Lexington Hands off the wheel like let it roll Red light on I don't brake (never) Heart begging for a mistake But the car just, slows down No big accident, no dead headline Just me breathing, fucking trapped Alive again, what the hell is this? I didn't want the adrenaline I needed it not to disappear And fuck Adrenaline was never fun It was me holding a gun Not to shoot, but to feel alive Every second I survived They think I was seeking pleasures The streetlights But I flirted with death every night I wasn't brave, I wasn't free, I wasn't divine I was playing with my destiny