Lexington Avenue, 2 AM
Yellow taxis and a head full of drugs
Lipstick stain in a coffee cup
I don't sleep, I just get high

Subway crying beneath my feet
The city is buzzing, but I feel weak
So I walk like the night is mine
Just to hide that I'm dead inside

They say: Boy, you love the adrenaline
But they don't know
How bad it gets when everything is still

Adrenaline rushing through my veins
Like a last lifeline for my brain
They think I'm wild, they think I'm free
But I'm just drowning in silence
Adrenaline, it keeps me feeling something
Anything is better than nothing
Yeah, I smile like I'm okay
But I'm just trying to survive the day

Brooklyn nights and a reckless ride
Crossing boundaries just to feel it again
On top of the skyscrapers
Seeing the lights from above near the edge
Testing gravity like I had Evidence

Taxi swerving, I don't flinch
I wish it had really crashed
Every risk is a silent plea
Maybe this is what will end me

Every ecstasy is a rehearsed goodbye
I don't want to live
But I can't just die

Adrenaline rushing through my veins
Like a last lifeline for my brain
They think I'm wild, they think I'm free
But I'm just drowning in silence
Adrenaline, keeps me feeling something
Anything is better than nothing
Yes, I smile like I'm okay
But I'm just trying to survive the day

Engine screaming in the Lexington
Hands off the wheel like let it roll
Red light on
I don't brake (never)
Heart begging for a mistake
But the car just, slows down
No big accident, no dead headline
Just me breathing, fucking trapped
Alive again, what the hell is this?

I didn't want the adrenaline
I needed it not to disappear
And fuck

Adrenaline was never fun
It was me holding a gun
Not to shoot, but to feel alive
Every second I survived
They think I was seeking pleasures
The streetlights
But I flirted with death every night
I wasn't brave, I wasn't free, I wasn't divine
I was playing with my destiny