I don’t wanna be afraid to wear shit I like
I don't wanna be the girl that I was that night
I don't wanna hear you scream again

I feel I should hate you, but I hate me more
Still regret that I couldn't close that door
And let you stay outside

But I'm so fucking tired of having to
Tired of having to

Didn't even remember how to stay sober
Didn't know how my mind would work from there
Couldn't see any reasons to keep on going
But I did anyway couldn't let it win

I'm tired of having to see you around
I'm tired of having to sleep in this house
I'm tired from anxiety
And I don't know where I’ve been

Didn't even remember how to stay sober
Didn't know how my mind would work from there
Couldn't see any reasons to keep on going
But I did anyway couldn't let it win
But I did anyway couldn't let it win

Won't let it go any further than this
'Cause I’ve already been there and
I remember that I could not breathe
Won't let it go any further ahead
'Cause I'm tired of waiting for it to end

Didn’t even remember how to stay sober
Didn’t know how my mind would work from there
Couldn’t see any reasons to keep on going
But I did anyway couldn't let it win

I don't have any thoughts and my head feels numb
And I don't know where I’ve been
I don't have any thoughts and my head feels numb
And I don't know where I’ve been