E                       C#m        A
Find myself kissing the sidewalk
                B
Brown water and xanny together
E                      C#m
Just trying to turn my mind off
A                    B
Fool I was thinking today would be better

E
Feeling I'm getting
C#m
Personal heaven
A                            B
Craving I've had since I was 11

E
Brain interference
C#m
That's draining my spirit
A                        B
I know it's bad for me I don't wanna hear it


(Begin distortion)
E
All alone
C#m
No way home
A
Bloody nose
B
From my snow

E
All my friends
C#m
Left me for dead
              B
I find myself here again here again


[Chorus]
E               C#m
Why can't I get high
        A
Without wanting to die
        B
Without wanting to die
E               C#m
Why can't I get high
        A
Without wanting to die
        B
Without wanting to die

(End distortion)


[Verse 2]
E                       C#m      A
Told myself I'd find a limit
                     B
Honest-to-God I'd be done with my sinning
E                      C#m
2 pills before I forget it
A                    B
Walls closing in and the ceiling is spinning

E
Brain going manic
C#m
I start to panic
A                            B
This night's not going away that I planned it

E
Oxygen's thinning
C#m
Tires are skidding
A                            B
This is all my fault man who am I kidding


(Begin distortion)
E
Close my eyes
C#m
Say good bye
A
Let me be
B
Let me die

E
Mom and dad
C#m
Don't be sad
A
Really it's not so bad not so bad


[Chorus]
E               C#m
Why can't I get high
A
Without wanting to die
B
Without wanting to die
E               C#m
Why can't I get high
A
Without wanting to die
B
Without wanting to die


[Outro]
          E
I've been lying
        C#m
And I'm dying
       A
And my mother
       B
She is crying
       E
No I'm nothing
       C#m
No I'm nothing
       A
No I'm nothing
       B
No I'm not
               E
I'm nothing at all