I'm a failure by my own design
A garden of funeral pyres
Your kind eyes atrophy
But I knew that joy was never meant for me, fuck

Spirits lost in a sickness as hearts intertwine
I thread all your grief through mine
We'd break every promise made
Our stars aligned but heaven's frayed
The moonlight tore through our silhouette
Twisting us in hateful pirouettes
Though thrill will promise shame
You know that I will always stay
Ruin

(It takes all the hurt from you)
(And fills your aching bones with warmth)
(But in the brief moment of respite)
I envision my fucking end
Egh

She rots straight to the bone
Ruin, I cannot let her go
This dance is all I know and I'm scared of letting go

Why do I do this to myself?
Severed the hands that had reached to help
Why do I do this to myself?
A body crushed by the weight of hell
Another night we writhe in this pain, refusing to change
Searching for solace, lost in sickness
This love will ruin me (Ruin me)

When it drags you down, will you reach for me?
Will you find your serenity in the things that we could have been?