Suicidal Thoughts

C                         Am
I'm not suicidal I don't wanna fucking die
     C                          Em
Just wanna be able to close my eyes and feel alright
          C                Am
But every day I feel like dying
       C                Em
Every day I feel like dying (dying...)


[Verse 1: Josh A]
C
Why do I even try?
          Am                              C                                            Em
Why do I even write lyrics about how I'm living the life when I'm battling pain and my demons at
 night
                     C
Trying to find a new outlet

The devil pounced in
            Am
I hear him howling, my vision clouded
       C
Man I tried to escape but there ain't no way
 Em
Try to be strong when I deal with the pain
 C                             Am                           C
(yuh) Put a bitch in the coffin, so my family has options
                           Em
Gonna work till' I'm dead

So that they get the best
C                                       Am
Don't wanna set up a bad example cause' kids looking up
                                   C
Can't leave them in shambles can't make them think clocking out is ok
   Em
So fuck suicide I'm here to stay


[Chorus: Josh A]
        C
Try to free my mind
        Am
I don't know what's right
         C                     Em
Wasting all my time, trying to find the light
        C
Try to free my mind
         Am
I don't know what's right
         C                     Em
Wasting all my time, trying to find the light

(nah, nah)
C                                  Am
I'll be out here running, I'll be running from myself now
C                           Em
Gunning demons down find my way out of this cell now
C                                  Am
I'll be out here running, I'll be running from myself now
C                           Em
Gunning demons down find my way out of this cell now


[Hook: Jake Hill]
C                         Am
I'm not suicidal I don't wanna fucking die
     C                          Em
Just wanna be able to close my eyes and feel alright
          C                Am
But every day I feel like dying
       C                Em
Every day I feel like dying (dying...)


[Verse 2: Jake Hill]
C
One too many bad thoughts inside me
      Am
Got a hole in my heart put the past behind me
    C                                             Em
I'm pressed with time, I'm stressed with life, my breath is ice
                     C
I guess I might just bottle it up some more just like always
 Am
Barely standing, crawling down the hallways
C                      Em
Sink into my bed, with death inside my head
            C
(Yeah) That note you found I didn't mean it
      Am
Just wish I had a better sense of meaning
     C
Never meant to let you down
                   Em
I've been down now racing thoughts had to drown them out

(Fuck)
      C                            Am
Never giving in I swear to god, no matter how many times I pray to a god
   C                                     Em
I don't believe in just to see if I will never wake up

But he called my bluff


[Chorus: Josh A]
        C
Try to free my mind
        Am
I don't know what's right
         C                     Em
Wasting all my time, trying to find the light
        C
Try to free my mind
         Am
I don't know what's right
         C                     Em
Wasting all my time, trying to find the light

(nah, nah)
C                                  Am
I'll be out here running, I'll be running from myself now
C                           Em
Gunning demons down find my way out of this cell now
C                                  Am
I'll be out here running, I'll be running from myself now
C                           Em
Gunning demons down find my way out of this cell now


[Hook: Jake Hill]
C                         Am
I'm not suicidal I don't wanna fucking die
     C                          Em
Just wanna be able to close my eyes and feel alright
          C                Am
But every day I feel like dying
       C                Em
Every day I feel like dying (dying...)
C                         Am
I'm not suicidal I don't wanna fucking die
     C                          Em
Just wanna be able to close my eyes and feel alright
          C                Am
But every day I feel like dying
       C                Em
Every day I feel like dying (dying...)