Today was Long - Last Tuesday

And I'll concede, I was the first
To take this news and doubt my everything
Wondering how we would go, go on from here
When everything I thought I needed most
Was taken from me
And you know I want to be, strong but then it's hard to see
How you're controlling everything, and how I need you now
This song is not the end
This change can't take away the things, that you always had in mind
You know you always had in mind
Today was long, as as it went on, I felt the need to want to sleep away
Hoping that tomorrow brings relief on pain
Or put me one day close to the end
So I can see the plan
And now I want to know, how this change will make me grow
Towards the things you'll need me for, and how I need you now