have felt that I hated this life of mine to the point where I have drank to numb this depression that lived in me. I know that this is no way to deal with serious problems that arise as a result of brain dysfunction.

Drunk and depressed. Wasted and spent. Lord, hear my words

I do not know what to say anymore. As the days fly by I see myself becoming the man that I hate. Cleanse my filthy life of alcohol and strife. I'm ready to repent.