Troubles

I wish that everything was as I
I would have at least one thing I want
I would be understood by all who love
I would at least no longer be invisible

I would at least be at peace
I would at least people around me that I no longer at peace;
It is not even exist for them
I want to be normal, and have a normal life

I think in fact has only one thing I would like now
At this very moment;
I want to kill me, dying for no more suffering!