G#m D#m E

[Verse 1]
                  G#m
Through all of my life

I waver back and forth between
  F#
A belief and not
             E
Believing in anything
                      Emaj7 E
In any solid shape
              G#m
The unfettered mind
         F#
A deeper understanding that holds nothing
         Emaj7
That lets sounds come in the ear
                                                 G#m
And just pass through without deciding what it was
                     F#
If it was a jet or a dragon
       E
It was merely a sound without a name or a picture
       
It was every possible thing at once


[Verse 2]
         G#m
I barely ever get to be in this state
                      F#
Just quick flashes by surprise

When I'm like standing by a car

Squinting my eyes
                     E
Caught off guard and unpicturesque
                        G#m
I used to sing this one song all the time
                             F#
That I made up to try to cut through

When I'd find myself caught up
             E
Entranced in certainty
                 D#m
Staring at a hill

And it went:
                      G#m
"Let's get out of the romance"

Over and over
                      F#
"Let's get out of the romance"
                                                 D#m    E
"Please can I go through this life unscared to see that nothing stays the same"

"No one knows anything."


[Verse 3]
           G#m
When I was younger and didn't know
          F#
I used to walk around basically begging the sky
         E
For some calamity to challenge my foundation

When I was young
   G#m
So imagine what it was like to watch up close a loved one die
              F#
And then look into the pit

I lived on the edge of it
           Emaj7          E
And had to stay there
                  G#m
Joanne Kyger said:
                                       F#                       B
"We fight incredibly through a hideous mishmash of inheritance
   E
Forgiving for deeper stamina
             G#m
That we go on

The world always goes on
                     F#       B
Breaking us with its changes
          E               G#m       E      
Until our form, exhausted, runs true."


[Verse 4]
               G#m
Out of nowhere love returned
                                F#
I saw what looked like a god who walks among us

I met her, we fell so in love
       E
She is angelic, miraculous, I totally lost my mind
           G#m                            D#m
And poured everything into this sea, this ocean
    G#m                                              F#
And when I came to I saw my face in a store window's reflection

And there was fear behind those eyes
E                                   G#m
Now I'm back where I was when I was 20

Trying to stop clinging to a dream
           F#
And let an old idea of love dissipate
                           E
Back into formless rolling waves

Of discomfort and uncertainty
                            G#m
The true state of all things
                             F#
I want to wade out into dark water
                  E
Hand in hand with you
                                                           G#m
I played this song for you and all you heard were the words

"Discomfort and uncertainty"
           F#
You asked "How do we get back to how it was?"
                  E
And that's when I started to know
                G#m
That I might be in it alone

Devoted to an unknown
F#
Homelessness enthroned
           E
Us and the kids all wind-blown
    G#m
Courageous as bone

Lying down in a storm
     F#
Steadfast, newborn
  E
A house with no door

Exhausted form
        G#m
In your eyes I found home
     F#
I believed you and dove
          E
And oh my god