I should be
Sleeping by now
But what if I’m to blame
For everything?

Try to fault my genes or anxiety
But I choose to be alone
To not live a normal life

Backed off from a risky life
Fell into a bottomless pit of boredom
Efforts to climb are riddled
With pointlessness and strife

Maybe I’m already in too deep
Sometimes it feels like there’s no rope at my reach
That would be long enough to pull me out of this
This ever-descending abyss

I try focusing
I look up
I trust in myself
I climb so much

I keep climbing and climbing
‘Til my energy’s gone
Looking down I came so far
Looking up there’s so much more

All I can see
Are the faces above me
With their smiling teeth
Telling me I can do it
How could they know?

Telling me I can do it
How could they know?
If they were already up there
They were already up there from the start

Maybe I’m already in too deep
Sometimes it feels like there’s no rope at my reach
That would be long enough to pull me out of this
This ever-descending abyss

Maybe I’m already in too deep
Sometimes it feels like there’s no rope at my reach
That would be long enough to pull me out of this
This ever-descending abyss