I can't find the feeling
I can't define the feeling for myself
I've made up the meaning
I've made up a reason, but I know it won't help

Maybe it doesn't matter
It doesn't really matter if anybody hears
I need build a ladder
Build a ladder and climb my way out of here

There's so many things that I want to say
Cause part the of the picture is off the frame
I'm back at the start but I feel the same
Will I still fall apart when I hear your name?

There's no use in trying
No use in trying to make my point
Cause while I was dying
While I was dying, I couldn't use my voice

So self-defeating
So scared of leaving, for fear of being lost
I needed air for breathing
Needed air, but I didn't wanna pay the cost

There's so many things that I want to say
Cause part the of the picture is off the frame
I'm back at the start but I feel the same
Will I still fall apart when I hear your name?

I'll go on just the same but the pain is a part of me
Give me time, give me trust, give me just one apology
I'll go on just the same but the pain is a part of me
Give me time, give me trust, give me just one

There's so many things that I want to say
Maybe a different life would've been the same
I'm back at the start but I feel the same
Will I still fall apart when I hear your name?

Will I still fall apart when I hear your name?