Death Expectation

Scary universe challenging
To unleash a breath willing
To penetrate in the deafness
On the other side -

- fingers, caressing a hollow darkness
Frightened lips, a strain to touch.
To know in a second there is nothing

Apart from emptiness
I turn the light, to wound my eyes.
Scattered numb lips
On the gasping walls.

Apart from nothingness
I kill the day to feel the night
Something …
In my body sleeps

In the expectation of my death
I cry in tumultuous desperation
To silence the non-coming noises
To stop the screams of my voices
In the expectation of my death

I claim I had the ticket to run away
Or at least stand still …Bleeding.
Fuck that, I enjoy it
Even when there is pain I feel
Pure thoughts of an impure soul