Snow falls like ashes in the dark
Gun in my hand, but I’ve lost the spark
Another job, another life to take
But why does my pulse start to hesitate?

Through the window, I see them laugh
A family whole, with nothing cracked
A love so simple, safe, and true
The kind I swore I'd never need—until I saw you

I swore I’d never let myself want more
Never stand outside some stranger’s door
But now I see a life I’ll never touch
And fuck, it hurts too much

I almost had it, I almost held it
A love that didn’t break, a home that never melted
For just a second, I saw it there—
Me, Loona, Octavia, Stolas, without a single care
But reality’s colder than the falling snow
So I turn away and let it go

Loona asks if I'm okay
I force a smile, I look away
She says she’ll handle it, take the lead
But for once, I don’t feel the need

I see the scene play out again
A world where love ain’t just pretend
A family smiling, arms pulled tight
A dream that dies in Sinsmas night

I swore I’d never let myself want more
Never stand outside some stranger’s door
But now I see a life I’ll never touch
And fuck, it hurts too much

I almost had it, I almost held it
A love that didn’t break, a home that never melted
For just a second, I saw it there—
Me, Loona, Octavia, Stolas, without a single care
But reality’s colder than the falling snow
So I turn away and let it go

Maybe in some different time
Maybe in a life that isn’t mine
I’d take the shot, but not for blood—
I’d take it for the ones I love

But I know better, I know me
Love is something I can't keep
So I walk away, leave it behind
Pretend it never crossed my mind

I almost had it, I almost held it
A love that didn’t break, a home that never melted
For just a second, I saw it there—
Me, Loona, Octavia, Stolas, without a single care
But reality’s colder than the falling snow
So I turn away and let it go

Nah, fuck this
We’re going home