G
One year we flew up to Alaska

All the scenery was gorgeous
        Em                           C
And the people all so pleasant what a place
G
  Might have been our one chance

To experience it firsthand
        Em                            D
All the culture and the beauty of the state

But when we arrived I
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Couldn’t bring myself to leave the car
                              Em
Stayed locked away with my guitar

And while the others

Studied the mountains and the rivers
        C                D                  G
I just stared down at my fretboard, pad and pen

[Verse 2]
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Lately I’ve been struggling to conjure up

A band aid for this problem
          Em                      C
That has freshly manifested in my brain
            G
It seems as though I’ve grown a light switch

Deep within the recess of my psyche
       Em                            D
One if flipped renders me borderline insane

It’s like ten seconds ago
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  Everything was fine and dandy
        G             Em
But now everything is fucked
          Em
And there ain’t no rhyme or reason for my seething
       C          D             G
I just wanna be okay but I feel stuck

[Verse 3]
        G
I don’t get to see the family often

Always on road
        Em
So, one year we organized a trip
     C                   G
We’d take to Lake Tahoe

A place we’d been when I was younger
                      Em
All the memories are golden
D
  But when we arrived I
C                         G
 found myself down at the bar
                           Em
Black out drunk and seeing stars

While my loved ones

All played board games by the fire
      C            D                 G
I did drink myself within an inch of death

[Verse 4]
        G
I’m no stranger to mistakes

It feels like every step I take
          Em                            C
I trip myself I can’t get out of my own way
       G
I’m by far my harshest critic and a cynic
                  Em
Too neurotic to accept that sometimes
                D
Shit is just o-kay

There's always gotta be
C                         G
Some problem I alone must solve
                                Em
But that just ain’t the case at all

Cause I got friends and family
                      C
But my worst enemy is me
            D               G
And me just can’t escape my head

[Outro]
            C
Cause I was born to sabotage myself
     G
Well that's on me and no one else
      Em
I’m a human grenade
                D
And I’m good at pullin’ my own pin
        C
You can blame it on my mental health
G
Addictions, stress and anything else
Em
All it boils down to

Is I’m an asshole with a loud mouth
      C         D               G       
And a system of support I don’t deserve