Thought about it again and again
You would allow me if I'd stumble right in
Make the mess that I'd leave for you
Never know what you're talking into

I've been trying again
I've been lying again
I've been telling myself

What, what if I had myself, I'd find the rest hiding there
I confess it's harder than ever but
I can't wait till I am awake then I'll
Have myself, I'll find a way out of here

Time to time I slip out of my head
Second guessing while I still pretend
I'm in control but I have no clue
Whether or not I'll come through

I've been lying again
I've been trying again
I've been telling myself

What, what if I had myself, I'd find the rest hiding there
I confess it's harder than ever but
I can't wait till I am awake then I'll
Have myself, I'll find a way out of here

In my mind I've rehearsed it so well
On the outside you never could tell
That I'm dying without you here
I pretend with you everything's clear

I dream about the way it would feel
I plan the day when I could just see you
Looking back at me with that new face
I know that I am here in the right place

I have myself, I finally found you
I have myself, I finally found you
I have myself, I finally found you
I have myself, I finally, finally found you
Finally found you
I finally found you
Finally, finally found you